random

here is a video i tried to post a right before we moved and it didn't work... we will see if it works this time. and yes my daughter is almost always just in a diaper if we are in our house.. but always in clothes outside of it.

finding middle ground

today was a bad day. It rained all day yesterday, so it was really wet and cold outside today so we didn't get to go to play group. Lily isn't feeling well. I think its a combo of teething and a cold. the poor girl spent the day whining that i couldn't just do everything she wanted me to, which at times i would just do because she was so miserable, but something happened to top it all off. the part time job that i was promised in an email from a gym i applied at turned out to be a "mistake". they sent the email to the wrong person. Of course while waiting for the background check (that they weren't actually doing) to go through i turned down another job. So today I spent hours on the phone, fruitlessly trying to figure out what was happening and trying to make them be liable for their actions, while still trying to look for another job. anyway lots of tears, lots of frustration and a very sad lily. I decided it would be great for me to take a break and go to enrichment... I thought it would be uplifting...
Enrichment night all about making a low budget breakfast using food storage. I came away feeling like such a bad mother and wife. I mean come on why don't I make 8 grain pancakes using only food storage and have them come out perfect, served with a homemade syrup and homemade yogurt at six in the morning? I should be doing that right? without it my daughter won't be able to focus half way through class and she will fail her tests... oh wait lily isn't in school yet... oh wait, we don't have food storage yet. It is a goal for this year, but as of yet it hasn't happened ... which of course made me feel guilty also. I just felt like all these women had it figured out and knew exactly how to nutritiously feed their children while saving money and keeping their homes clean and i am happy to do the dishes and have lily bathed, fed and dressed before seth gets home from work. Luckily i have a level headed husband who wiped away my tears of frustration and brought some reality into my life. these women might enjoy spending an extra hour to save their family a dollar, by making some homemade yogurt, but it would simply stress me out. and right now we just can't afford 8 different kinds of grains to grind for my daughters breakfast. as much as i hate it we are living pay check to pay check and until a few more commission checks come in that's how its going to be, and beyond trying to find a part time job that will let me take lily with me, there isn't much else i can do to help that situation. I know that a lot of these things would in the end save us money, but i don't have the money to invest in starting those things. i don't have the money to buy an ingredient that i will only use for yogurt that my family won't even finish because seth doesn't have time to eat before he leave for work at 6:30 and that lily can't eat because she needs organic dairy and the church hasn't come out with organic food storage yet. i also had to be reminded that while my oldest (and only) child is 18 months, alot of these women had teenage children. They have been around the block and it probably took them years to get to this point. anyway this has turned into a very random post, but its helping me cope with a very emotional day. now, even though its midnight, i need to go make up for my non productive day by cleaning my way too messy kitchen, and hope that lily sleeps in til 9 tomorrow and doesn't wake up 4 times tonight like the last 6 nights.

lily pigtails

so here are some pics of lily in her pigtails. she loves posing for pictures. she loves to be pretty and dress up now. what a liyyle girl she's becoming.

Introducing Chubs Zulu and their baby

Yep, we went against Levi's advice (no offense levi) and got sugar gliders and we love them! We have a breeding pair and their baby girl (still unnamed) who is only a month out-of-pouch. They are pretty tame and usually come to the door of the cage whenever we call for them. The baby likes to cuddle up to us and sleep, but she is becoming more active every day. The adults like to crawl out on us to say hello and of course search for food. Chubs loves to wander out of his cage, and since we have a whole room detached from the house dedicated to them and seths plants, its easy for him to explore without us worrying. We have several people trying to claim our baby girl but we are pretty sure that we are going to keep her because she is more tame than the adults. Zulu is still a little nervous and we think that is because the baby is still very young. we think that as the baby grows she will warm up to us more and more. Well there they are, they are fun and a good hobby for me. We are doing really well. we have new friends in the ward who we have alot in common with, so we are settling in well. Maybe i will get back into the blogging soon. oh and i would have posted more pictures but our camera died today before i could get any good pictures, so i will try again soon.

good deal

i found a really good deal on buy.com its for a 2 screen phillips dvd player for 90plus free shipping... This really tempted me but we can't afford it yet so i was hoping someone else could. here it is http://www.buy.com/prod/philips-portable-7-dvd-player-w-dual-lcd-screens-pet708-37/q/loc/111/204141425.html i hope someone can use this deal.

Here it is...

The reason I haven't blogged is because not much is happening... I've just been unpacking and actually keeping my house decently clean... Lily started nursery and is doing really well. She loves playing with other kids so i take her to the ward play group at the nearby park on tuesdays. She is talking alot more now... the other day we were at Jane's (sorry i don't know how to do the accent) and her kids and grandkids were there... she was having so much fun and when i walked into the play room she said "no mom go away" this was her first time saying no and now its her favorite word... great for me right? but i'm glad she's talking more. She also takes me outside every day to pick an orange for her... Sorry this blog is very random... I am babysitting nicole and melissa so i am very distracted. anyway i will post more later.

arizona

we are here and safe... not very unpacked still. this is mainly because Lily is going through a very needy stage... one of those "I won't only be in your face, but I have to touch you at all times and that means no naps AND late bedtimes" someday I will get it done. We had a lot of drama with seths job that i really don't want to post about... but if you haven't heard ask mom or dad, it still makes me too mad to talk about it... but in the end he worked thursday and friday and i think he will enjoy his job... anyway we are loving the weather here and our backyard is perfect to enjoy it in.. I don't really feel like blogging much with a one year old in my lap, so i will try to write later.